At first I wanted to go sit in the living room and chat on my computer while he fell asleep, but his little fingers--outstretched in my direction, grasping my own (much larger) fingers as I picked up his discarded pacifier-- guided me back to my main focus: him. He touched my face; I stroked his cheek and rubbed his back. He played with the bandaid on my finger, I gently patted his bottom until he fell asleep. And now that he's asleep, I can't bring myself to get up and leave. So I'm laying here, typing out this blog post on my phone as I listen to him breathing and occasionally sucking on his pacifier. I feel content and yet so full of love that it hurts.
I know it's hard in this day and age to really focus (and I mean REALLY focus) on our kids when we have Facebook and Netflix and iPhones and Xbox's. For Baby G's sake though, I am working hard to decrease my dependence on all the distractions in life. It can be hard some days not to get sucked into the world of technology. BUT he is the most important person in my life, and he deserves as much love and attention as I can possibly give him (and more). So we will continue to work on it, for as long as it takes!
Kind of a random post, but it was on my mind and so I thought I would share.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a sleeping baby to marvel over.
PLH
(Peace, love, happiness)
Momma E and Baby G
<3
