I feel like caca!

So, I am very happy that I've made it this far in the pregnancy. I'll be 38 weeks on Monday. However, I am SO INCREDIBLY IMPATIENT NOW! I want to see my baby boy! I know he's still in there because he's not ready to come out, but eesh.  I have been having prodromal labor since 33 weeks and I found out Thursday that it has been doing absolutely nothing. I didn't ask about effacement, but I'm not dilated one bit. I would have been happy with even a .5, but absolutely nothing! All this pain and I feel like I have had no progress to show for it. Ugh.

So now that I'm past full term, I'm going to start the cervix preparing for labor. I won't do anything that is actually supposed to start labor (such as castor oil) because I don't want to bring him out before he's completely ready, but I do want to do the things that will help once I'm IN labor. That came out kind of jumbled. What I mean is things like Evening Primrose Oil (which I have been using orally but am now going to start inserting vaginally as well) because it thins/dilates the cervix. I'm also going to get some Raspberry Leaf Tea because it's supposed to tone the uterus for contractions and what not. I want to try swimming and an exercise ball too (even though I'm on bed rest til delivery-- but that is more for my own comfort, doc told me). I just need to buy a swim cap... and an exercise ball. Hehe. I think if nipple stimulation wasn't so scary (since it can cause hyper stimulation of the uterus), and if I had a breast pump (one of the last things I need!) then I might try it, but that's a no go. I would be afraid to try castor oil since it's a laxative too and I seriously do not need to have the poops. Especially since I'm 90% sure I'll be getting an epidural which kind of kills bowel control and such. Doesn't sound like a fun time to me!

So many of the ladies in my beloved July 2012 First Time Mom Group on Facebook have either had their babies or are in the process of it. I think there have been about 45 babies so far and they are all so cute!! I'm getting serious baby fever from the photos and stories! Makes me even more excited, to be honest. I have an ultrasound on Tuesday so I'll get more pictures of Baby G (or as my dad says, photographs at this point).

Today, I feel like crap. I've has surprisingly few contractions today, which is SO nice. It's like getting a break from the pain. Not like the contractions have been helping either way. I have, however, been nauseated, had little to no appetite, had a headache ALL day, had vertigo/dizziness, and had that strange, swollen joint feeling in my left hand and foot. So annoying. I'm feeling a bit better thank goodness, but none of the symptoms have gone away completely. Blegh.

Also, I'm very excited that once baby gets here and I get the okay, I can start a fitness regimen. I have gained 21 pounds so far. Which is good because with my height/weight they told me to keep it between 15-25 pounds. And I have the excess amniotic fluid and the actual baby, the uterus, the placenta, the water weight, etc. Hopefully I can get rid of at least 15 of those pounds fairly easily. And since I had unfortunately gained about 10 pounds before I even GOT pregnant from my stupid birth control pill, I'll definitely be losing that too. And even though I was at 120 for a few years (which has always been fine for me) I would like to knock off another 10 pounds so that it wouldn't be as bad with my height. Since I'm only 4'4, my BMI says I should actually be around 90 pounds. But that's completely unrealistic for me, since I have a nice amount of muscle mass, gigantic boobies, a big booty, and usually nice sized thighs. I couldn't lose all that if I tried (which I wouldn't). But even if I wanted to, that would be a terrible idea. Seeing as I would look like a 12 year old girl again haha. The maturity of my body is the only thing that keeps everyone I come in contact with from thinking that I actually am a 12 year old girl at first glance (and even then, about 25-50% still seem to think that).

Anyway I got kind of side tracked. Basically, after I have baby, I want to get to my pre-pregnancy/birth control weight of 120 at least and then I'll work on the remaining 10 pounds. But it's not the end of the world if that takes me longer to accomplish!

My head is killing me big time! So I'm going to end this post now, methinks.

Next time I'll do an update on the nursery (which is my room as well) and the overall preparations. And I'll do an update on what I've do about preparing for labor and such. Anywho! I'll try to post sooner rather than later. Sorry for the delay with this one!

Stealing this from a member of the Facebook group so I can close this post up nicely.

"Our bodies are very wise. Our babies are very wise. They work together to grow and birth the baby in their own perfect timing."